my one heart

 

These are lyrics from a song called Sea of Faces by a Christian rock band, Kutless…

“If only my one heart

was all You’d gain

from all it cost,

well I know,

You would have

still been a man

with a reason

to willingly offer Your life.”

Though I’ve heard the song a hundred times, it gives me goose bumps to really think about this idea.  When I think of me following Jesus I don’t exactly think of him ‘gaining’ something.  I know this song is not scripture, but I know from scripture that this concept is true.

Luke chapter 15 verses 4 and 5 say:

“What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it?  And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing…”

Verse 7 goes on to say:

“Likewise… there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

You can also read the examples of the lost coin and the lost son; stories which have the same conclusions.

Though I know in my head that I am saved by grace, through faith, not by works, it is hard to feel that in my heart at times.  I often feel like I don’t have enough faith, don’t deserve salvation, and don’t DO enough for God… which is all true… BUT, Romans 5:8 says,

“God demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

He knows where I’m at.  He knows my heart… which is scary in a way, but also comforting.  He knows that I do have a little faith, and though I mess up at times, He still loves me.  He loved me before I loved Him.  He chose me before the foundation of the world to be His.

Maybe if I meditated on this instead of being so easily distracted by the cares and duties of this world, and remember that Jesus would leave the flock to come find little old me and save me and rejoice over finding me, I would experience a deeper faith and better focus on living for Him in all that I do.

I am not sneaking in to Jesus’ promises, trying to be good enough for Him… He picked me.  Through His grace and sacrifice, I am enough for Him.  I need to let Him be enough for me in my life.

I hope this scatterbrained rambling is encouraging to someone else!  <3